Restart

Almost forgot I had this blog.

Forgive me my friends, I have been absent lately due to a large amount of things. Life has a way of keeping all of us busy. Which is funny, considering I can't even seem to find a real job.

Ever since I first started hunting for a job, I've been nervous and impatient. I feel like I've been searching long enough. I feel like I am stuck in a vicious cycle of not having experience and not being hired because of not having experience. I feel like as someone of my age and having a degree, I should be able to get a job and move on with the next stage of my life. I was almost angry with life for not giving me what I felt like I deserved. But I was gravely mistaken.

God has shown me lately that I have to run on his time and not my own. I should not expect things to be thrown into my lap as I see fit. God has a plan for me, as he does for all of us. But the biggest disconnect that most of us have is patience. Patience is something I have struggled with throughout my entire life. Waiting for something is almost painful for me to do because I want things immediately. Having to wait makes me feel like I am out of control of the things in my life. But as I have been praying and meditating on God's will and his word lately, I have come to realize that I was not meant to control my own life. I must simply do as God tells me to do and live according to his will. Then, and only then, will I have the ability to be patient.

"Let go and let God."

Forgive me. Despite having the desire to write and express myself, something is holding me back. Perhaps I need to clear a few things in my head before I can truly write with the literary talents I once had.