Gradual Progression

Today has been another one of those days in which I get myself fully clothed and publicly presentable, then never leave the house. And I am perfectly okay with that. Before I know it, having free time like this will almost seem like more of a dream than anything else, so I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.

I bought a new stereo receiver recently. The sound quality and sheer power is unlike anything I've had before. More features than I know what to do with, many of which I haven't even discovered yet. As I sat there the night I purchased it and was setting it up, I couldn't help but smile as I heard the first few deep bass notes hit and shake the window. I then took a step back and took a look at what I call my own personal "Command Center" and began to think. I have a TV larger than most people should, multiple game systems, and now a stereo to match it all. I have a very nice computer, a nice phone, a nice car AND motorcycle that are both fully paid off, and countless other things. And besides just possessions, I have a beautiful home to live in, and a family that loves me more than I could ever imagine. I have a God who loves me unconditionally and takes complete care of me. He provides for every one of my needs, and many of my wants. He gives me peace in times of turmoil. He gives me hope when there is none. He gave me many intellectual gifts. He's given so much. And yet I sit here on His earth and I complain.

I complain about so many things. Small, pointless things that have no real validity or purpose. I complain about it not being warm enough for me to ride my motorcycle. I complain about not having as much money as I want to do every single little thing that I want. I constantly complained about how much I disliked school. He gave and He gave and I have given nothing in return. I became so wrapped up in creation that I began to forget about the creator. As I look around me, I see so many people who have it way worse than I do. I take so many things for granted, like a strong family life, or a car that I can rely on, or money to fall back on in case of an emergency. Where in the world did I get the idea that I had the right to complain when things don't go exactly the way I want them to? For anyone who reads this and knows me, they know it is true, and I'm sure it has effected more people than just myself. And for that, I am truly sorry.

It's time I stopped dwelling so much on what I don't have and remember the things that I do have. It's time I started loving the one who loves me. It's time I gave my life to the one who gave it to me in the first place. There's a long road ahead, but that road is filled with hope, joy, and peace. And most of all, love. My God has never failed me, and He never will.

And so my friends, I wish this same peace and joy on all of you. I could still be considered an infant in my spiritual life, but there is nothing wrong with that. Growth is always a good thing. Pray for me. Pray for us all.